Minggu, 30 Juli 2017

The infamous resolution

1. Lose weight! Be my ideal weight before 2018
2. Love what I do, and be the best at it (do not whine, willing to learn)
3. Be more religious. 

slowly transitioning

I know this kind of things always end up becoming a watjana but I tried to start transitioning to a healthier lifestyle and it felt so good. For a couple day earlier, I feel like my asthma strikes again, not anything major, it's just I felt a little hard to breath, especially during the night time. So, yesterday, I told my parents and my dad decided to take me to the doctor. There, I know that I gained weight. YEAH BUMMER it's not like I just ate all day and have no exercise whatsoever!!!

anyway, yeah, it's like a slap to my face. SO I thought to myself, there it is! Now you should start thinking about yourself beforrrrreeee it's too late.


So, yeah, I've been doing some badminton practice my dad for a couple Sundays, except last Sunday because I got invited to my friend's sister's wedding. It wasn't really tiring, although, I  was so sleepy because I accidentally fell asleep when waiting for my dad. Before going there I ate like a banana and my mom made me a tea (which I drank around 3 sips), and that's that. After we came home, I ate a bunch of veggie (spinach, sprouts, and carrot) with fried tempe (I know fried things isn't healthy BUT like I said, I'm slowly transitioning!) and crackers which I just can't get rid of my diet. After playing the sims for awhile, I fell asleep and waking up needing to eat again BECAUSE  I have to take my medicine. I ate like a half of a rice spoon(?) with veggies and tofu, and crackers with a bit of sambel tho. After that I continue playing sims, but I felt like my exercise wasn't enough to balance things that I ate earlier.... SO I FINALLY USE THE STATIC BIKE HAHA, also I use my sauna jacket so I was sweating like crazy, man, I didn't remember how good it felt until I use it again. By the way, after finishing my exercise, I took a bath, and GUESS WHAT I ATE AGAIN because I need to take my medication. YEAH I ATE A LOT. Even if it's just tofu, sambal, and crackers. Yes, I only ate rice/carbs once today, bitches. well i do ate this ginger cookie tho but it doesn't count right hehe



CALORIES IN < CALORIES OUT

honestly I don't even know if I made it today, since you can tell how little my works are during holiday, and since I need to take medicine I need to eat 3x a day. BUT, again, slowly transitioning, I hope it'll get better. My plan is to actually get into my former weight, and slowly losing weight to my ideal weight, and I just search it up and it says 51-53 kg which means I need to lose around 27kg !!! damn..... (not to mention some even says my ideal weight is 45kg)

well let's start from going back to normal weight:) in my third year of college (now) and when I start college, I gain 4 kg!!!!! WELL IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T ATE SNACKS WHILE WORKING UP ALL NIGHT!!! 

and I just found out that according to my bmi, I'm super unhealthy which kind of stressing me out right now. OKAY.

The following post will be my plan diet and exercise routine:

1. Casual walking and running to sempur and somewhere around the house. Nothing major, I bet I'll sweat a little, it's more like a therapeutic thingy, breathing fresh oxygen, listening to the music and just lost in thoughts.

2. Eat! (if possible, raw) I shouldn't include any carbs here, it's more like things like smoothies and stuff like that.

3. Lunch time, eat again. You can eat carbohydrate here but try not to eat rice, I think cassava is enough.

4. Exercise again! This is the serious exercise, you should bike while wearing the sauna jacket for an hour.

5. If you are not hungry, you shouldn't eat again, but if you are and you have to take medicine you are allowed to eat. (no carbs tho!)

BUT I do realize that this lifestyle isn't really convenient during work days. SO HERE IS THE PLAN

1. Every morning when you wake up, perform a little exercise for like 30 minutes after subuh. (in non-busy days tho)

2. Usually I skip breakfast, but if hungry, eat the fruit you bring from home.

3. Lunch, eat just a small amount of rice AND try to avoid full-fat meal like sate ayam dll. here's some menu that's not good but better than the rest: telor-tahu, ketoprak, sayuran tumis.

4. DINNER, just please, don't eat rice. Well, you may, once every 3 times.

but when you have time to come home, please walk and bike again. PLEASE


TARGET

1. GET BACK TO PREVIOUS WEIGHT IN A MONTH
2. GET INTO IDEAL WEIGHT IN 3 MONTHS
bismillah 45 kg!!!!!

Sabtu, 29 Juli 2017

A little something I need to remind myself

JUST RIGHT TO THE POINT

I FUCKING LOVE WHAT I DO

I like coming out with an idea, I like creating, I like reading and actually get more knowledge from it. I'm in a place where I can do all those things that I love, I got those chances, but sometimes I'm too much of a lazy potato to realize it.

YOU'VE BEEN DREAMING ABOUT IT YOUR WHOLE LIFE


Let's be real here, I'm not much of a great artist, but I like it. I might have been stop drawing for say, 3 years? BUT, I'm willing to get back to the basic and learn something again and from what I know, I like it. So why? Why are you being such a coward and just follow the train? Why are you so afraid for being not good enough? Why do you let people brainwashed you into hating something that you really want to do in the first place?

The thought of you working hard but the result is not as good as someone who claim as "slacking off", the thought that someone have a "gift" and no matter how hard you try, you'll never be as good as they are, that's fucking bullshit. 

YOU KNOW WHAT? SCREW THEM AND THEIR FUCKING TALENT

If you're not having as great result as they are by slacking off, what makes you think you'll get any better by doing the same? I know it makes you think that it's not worth it, that you are wasting your time, that it might not be something that's good for you, and so are you just going to give up?

The thing is, you know, deep down, you love it. You can't wait to sit down in your tiny desk and work on your wild ideas. Sometimes it's not working, but hey, you tried and you know you learn something every single day. Every single semester, you know how stupid you are for the last 3 months, and actually try to not doing the same stupid things twice. 

JUST GET BACK. WORK HARD. PRAY HARDER. YOU JUST SET YOUR GOALS. YOU CAN DO IT.



Jumat, 28 Juli 2017

After Forever

New freaking look! Fresher and YES, no copyright issue!

          I always kind of afraid and anxious when people are talking about the future. Like, if I ever got a chance to time travel, I'd rather go to the past and just enjoying the nostalgic feeling than figuring out what's going to happen in my life. I don't even have the courage to think about it and mention it in here, I know, I'm such a coward. BUT I CAN'T HELP IT. So, when my dad actually told me about this job, I kind of feel excited and honestly, quite relieved (because at least, I know where I want to go from now on)

It's just setting goal, there are still a lot of struggle I need to face before I even get there (IF I could get there, I wish, I hope, aamiiin). But again, at least I know my destination, I'm not just walking with my eyes closed, just let the wind take me where ever it want me to go, you know? Because that's SO not me. I set goal. I know what I want, and I work my ass off for it. That's how it works, I don't just magically get somewhere. 

I do realize that it's such a HUGE deal. Like, it's fuckiiiingggg HUGE, but hey, it's okay to dream big, right? (but honestly tho, it's so unrealistic, it feels like a crime)

GUESS WISH ME LUCK THEN!