Now I'm in my dream university and in my dream major. BUT, I wish I could go back to that moment in high school again. I didn't notice it before, but yes, high school is the best. The thing that sucks in high school is that we have to attend it from 7-3 and it has a lot of subjects but beside of that, everything is just fine.
Tbh, it's my friends that I miss the most. Between the hardest time, they're always there. Like when we're about to face national exam, SNMPTN and all those jazz that keep buzzing my head since the first day in high school, I mean, without them I might need to visit therapist.
I remember it, crystal clear, how I walk through the front gate of my high school building, scan my finger print, and walk straight to my class. There, if it's not one of those hectic days, my friends will be sitting there gossiping or fangirling and I'll join them until the rest of my friends come. The thing is, I felt like they're my second home you know? Home is not a building, it's the feels. They simply gave me the feels. Comfort, secure, I'm who I am when I'm with them. I don't need to act to be normal or nice or fun. My craziness seems normal to them, my mean sarcastic cynical behavior is fine with them and they found me funny and I don't even need to work on that. What makes them more special is the fact that they made me a better version of myself. Not someone else but myself, only a little bit better. I haven't found someone quite like them in uni, tho. I hope I'll find one soon enough. And that's exactly what makes uni life feels more tiring.
I can only see my family in weekend, I haven't find a friend quite like my best friends in high school, actually I feel kinda lonely. I kinda need a little support, no, actually I need a daily support just like back then when I was in high school (how my friends support me everyday, not by words of wisdom but simply stay by my side, brighter my day with laughter). Not being able to see my parents in days totally breaks me. I always consider myself as family-oriented that's why being away from my family sucks. My eyes easily got wet whenever I see a women or a man that reminds me of my parents because I miss them like crazy. I totally believe that we can't live by only ourselves. More specifically we need those precious people.
I'm not a romantic kind of person. I'm not one of those teens who are into 'romance' so much. Of course, I've had a crush on someone but it was just a crush, but that wasn't love. You know what's love? Love is the feeling that I have for those people I mentioned above. How do I know it? It's easy to know that you truly love someone if you're a self-centered b*tch like me. Why? Because if I don't really care about them, I will not do anything that bother me to help them. But for these guys, I will.
Tbh, it's my friends that I miss the most. Between the hardest time, they're always there. Like when we're about to face national exam, SNMPTN and all those jazz that keep buzzing my head since the first day in high school, I mean, without them I might need to visit therapist.
I remember it, crystal clear, how I walk through the front gate of my high school building, scan my finger print, and walk straight to my class. There, if it's not one of those hectic days, my friends will be sitting there gossiping or fangirling and I'll join them until the rest of my friends come. The thing is, I felt like they're my second home you know? Home is not a building, it's the feels. They simply gave me the feels. Comfort, secure, I'm who I am when I'm with them. I don't need to act to be normal or nice or fun. My craziness seems normal to them, my mean sarcastic cynical behavior is fine with them and they found me funny and I don't even need to work on that. What makes them more special is the fact that they made me a better version of myself. Not someone else but myself, only a little bit better. I haven't found someone quite like them in uni, tho. I hope I'll find one soon enough. And that's exactly what makes uni life feels more tiring.
I can only see my family in weekend, I haven't find a friend quite like my best friends in high school, actually I feel kinda lonely. I kinda need a little support, no, actually I need a daily support just like back then when I was in high school (how my friends support me everyday, not by words of wisdom but simply stay by my side, brighter my day with laughter). Not being able to see my parents in days totally breaks me. I always consider myself as family-oriented that's why being away from my family sucks. My eyes easily got wet whenever I see a women or a man that reminds me of my parents because I miss them like crazy. I totally believe that we can't live by only ourselves. More specifically we need those precious people.
I'm not a romantic kind of person. I'm not one of those teens who are into 'romance' so much. Of course, I've had a crush on someone but it was just a crush, but that wasn't love. You know what's love? Love is the feeling that I have for those people I mentioned above. How do I know it? It's easy to know that you truly love someone if you're a self-centered b*tch like me. Why? Because if I don't really care about them, I will not do anything that bother me to help them. But for these guys, I will.
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